This memorial website was created in the memory of our loved one, Saige Bowman who was born in Virginia on August 09, 1990 and passed away on January 15, 2006 at the age of 15. We will remember her forever.

Sept 25, 2009

Fly away

No where to go

No where to be

Here I am

Ready to go

Always ready

to fly away

Home with my

Baby Girl!!!

Aug 9, 2009

I woke up this morning and wanted to go in your room and wake u up and wish you a happy birthday..... but then I realized you were not there....I was wishing it was a dream.... like I always do.... everyday.... I wish it was all a dream and when I wake up in the morning... I would hear u yelling..... Mom! I am hungry.... Mom....get up I have to go to Katie's house.... Mom.....can I have some money... Mom... I want to sleep a few more mins.  I can only see you in my dreams.... You are with me and hugging me and smiling at me... As if to say... Mom I know you miss me but I am ok... I will see you again... I promise... I love you mom...

Aug 9, 2009

Happy 19th Birthday My sweet angel!!!!  I miss u so much!!! We are in Florida, your favorite place......  We are going to send up balloons to you! Let me know if you see one...... I love you

June 10, 2009

Saige's cousin Amanda Bowman wrote this story about Saige.  She wrote this at Christmas 2008 in 3rd grade.

one night a girl was asleep in her bed and she heard something on the roof.   She went outside and it was Santa! Santa called out Saige's name and  said, "do you want to come with me to the North Pole?"

"I do, "Saige said. So they went to the North Pole.  Saige could not believe her eyes.  There were elves and they played with Saige and they had so much fun together.  Santa called Saige's name.  "I need your opinion," he said.

"Why do you need my opinion?" Saige asked

"on a Toy"

"Okay," Saige said with a soft voice.  Santa asked Saige what was wrong.  "Nothing," she said.  "Why do you ask?"  "I am making sure you are okay,"Santa said

"I am fine, "Saige said.  She went off to play with the elves again.  And next Santa said "We got to go".  "But can I say bye to all the elves?"  "Yes you may," Santa said.

"But how can I say bye to 1,000 elves?" "Just yell bye to them," Santa Said.

"Okay," Saige said. "BYE"! "BYE!" answered the elves.

Jan 27, 2009

This was written by one of Saige's best friends: Lydia

I’m missing the good times
I don’t miss the holidays or getting up in the morning and rushing so I’m not late for first block
I don’t miss the drama or the late night practices
I don’t miss the chores or curfews
I don’t miss the late nights filled with homework or the Saturday competitions
I don’t miss the Friday football games or the childish games
I don’t miss the stress or the parent teacher conferences
I don’t miss the tardies, referrals, or after school detention
I don’t miss the teachers or the family moments
I don’t miss the book reports or essays
I don't miss the rainy days or the bus rides
I don't miss our distance created with the high school clicks
I miss the late nights when no one else was up to talk but you
I miss our deep conversations and inside jokes
I miss the times when we could just look at each other and not say a word but laugh
I miss hanging out and doing nothing
I miss breaking the rules and not caring cause I knew I had a partner in crime that would go down with me
I miss cheating in class and getting caught
I miss almost getting caught when the dogs and police came to school
I miss sneaking to smoke and then spraying too much perfume to cover it up
I miss getting caught when skipping class
I miss planning our futures and thinking about how life would be in ten years
I miss planning our 21st birthday
I miss sneakin out for parties that we had no business going to
I miss competing for first chair in band
I miss getting mad at you and Lauren for not going to school
I miss sharing clothes and doing all of those silly diets even though we weren't fat
I miss celebrating when we had snow days
I miss your laugh and your smile
I miss our middle school click
I miss not having any cares in the world
But most of all I miss you.

Jan 22, 2009

Each day

As I go on, each day is hard

But I go on...

Each day is empty

But I go on...

Each day is heavy

But I go on...

Each day comes and goes

But I go on...

Each day is bright

But I go on...

Each day is forgiving

And I go on...

Each day is closer to you

That's how I go on...

Each day goes on and

So do I...

I know the day is soon

I will be with you and I can do the "no mores" I miss with you!!!

No mores

NO more hugs

No more kisses

No more hellos

No more good mornings

No more good nights

No more butterfly kisses

No more making brownies

No more holding your hand

No more sitting on the couch with your head in my lap

No more fixing your hair

No more going shopping for shoes and pocketbooks

No more fussing

No more whys

No more smiles

No more sad faces

No more "please let me go"

No more rolling your eyes at me

No more staying up late at night

No more pounding feet running down the hall sliding on the floor

No more slamming doors

No more "mom I am scared, can I sleep with you"

No more "please let me stay home from school with you"

No more "I want to do it my way"

No more "mom please let me drive down the road"

No more feeling you breathe

No more watiching you sleep and knowing you will wake up

No more singing in the car

No more acting silly

No more sassy mouth

No more "I love you mom"

I miss the "no mores"

I want the no mores back, but thats not possible

All I have left is the loneness, hopelessness, sadness, the hurt, the emptiness, the quilt I feel without you.

You must live every

second...

minute....

and every hour....

To get through the day.

It is then the past and tomorrow will be another day...

A better day... a another day....

Missing you, my beautiful baby girl... my wonder Saige.

Dec. 15, 2008

Thanks to everyone who remembered Saige Last night by lighting a candle in memory of her.  I am sure she saw everyone!!!! Please never forget her!!!!  She was a special person who loved everyone!

Sept 7, 2008

No one knows how I feel...... Only the parents who have lost their child know.

No one knows......what it feels like to have your heart taken out.

No one knows..... what it feels like to have your soul taken away.

No one Knows.....what it takes to get out of bed everyday.

No one knows......how much I want to die everyday.

No one knows.....just how I really feel

No one knows......how I long to touch Saige again

No one knows......I cry as much as I do

No one knows......somedays I feel like I am paralayzed

No one knows......sometimes I dont want to hear their problems...

No one knows......I think they are crazy for complaining about their children and how they wish they would grow up

No one knows.....I want to tell them to shut-up! You have your child, I dont! Love them, embrace them and their differences. Thank the Lord everyday you have them to love! So stop complaining to me about how they are driving you crazy!  I wish I had Saige here to drive me crazy. I dont want to hear, I could just kill her or him, If you are lucky they will grow up and move away. If you are not they may die and you to will feel the pain of losing a child.

No one knows..... what I will say to them... unless they make the mistake of complaining about their children, then I will tell them what I think. I have gotten a few surprise looks from moms who have said these things to me.

Dont tell me it has been enough time for you to go on. YOU dont know how much time I need. I can only make that choice. If that means you will judge me, then so be it. I dont care, I will move at my own pace and if it takes me a life-time, then thats ok. I have a right to take as long as I want! 

No one knows......just how lonley I am

No one wants to know......

Sept 7, 2008

'To get something you never had, you have to do something you never
did' When God takes something from your grasp, He's not punishing you,
but merely opening your hands to receive something better. Concentrate
on this sentence..... 'The will of God will never take you where the
Grace of God will not protect you.'

Aug 22, 2008

What if.....

What if.....you were here...

what if....you had never got in that car..

What if....I had of told you no

What if.... I had of held on to you a few more mins, would that have been enough time for the other car to pass and miss hitting you...

What if .... I had of made you and "her" stay at granny's house for a while..

What if .... I would have took you to "her" house.

What if... there had of been school the next day

What if.... you told me you didnt want to go

What if.... I stayed home from work...

What if.... you had of stayed with Evan that night

What if.... Katie had of stayed with you that night..

What if....you had of come home to stay with granny

I can ask what if... till the day I die and I will never know the answers

I can only wish I would have stopped you. I will have to live with that the rest of my life. 

I will have to live with never seeing you graduate from college, getting married, having me a grandchild, or taking care of me when I am old.....

and just saying I love you... holding you... crying with you....and fussing with you. I miss those times we had. We were close as sisters. We did fuss like any mother and daughter but we were best friends.

I miss you Saigee.....You are my strength that gets me up in the morning and keeps me going. You will always be in my heart even though part of it is missing now.. You were my soul and now its gone. I can only pray everyday that it is the day I will come to you.  I am ready ... I cant wait to be with you again... I love you!

Aug 5, 2008

I wonder..... why, why, why, why you

I wonder..... why wasnt it "her" and not you

I wonder.......why I let you leave

I wonder......what if I had  said "No" you cant go

I wonder......if you knew it would be your last day

I wonder......what you were thinking at that moment

I wonder....... if you felt any pain

I wonder.......if you saw your dad and took his hand

I wonder...... if you saw us in the hospital

I wonder...... if you told "her" to slow down

I wonder.... if you hate "her"

I wonder..... if you think it should have been "her"

I wonder......if you will forgive me for letting you go

I wonder..... what you are doing

I wonder..... if you think about me

I wonder.....if you are with me

I wonder...... if I can feel you

I wonder......if you wisper in my ear

I wonder.....if you hug me

I wonder......how I can reach you

I wonder......how I can touch you

I wonder......how I can hug you

I wonder..... what it would be like to be with you

I wonder...... who would care

I wonder...... why people say  I am strong... If I were strong....I would be able to come to you......

June 19, 2008

I gave out 3 scholarships in memory of Saige.  Each receive 250.00.  Andrew Vernon,he will be attending UVA Wise studing criminal justice.   Jessica Glass, will attend Danville college for Dental Hygentist and Michael Mayhew, will attend University of Charleston in WV studing Business Admin.   

June 19, 2008

New Pictures from our California trip to visit Justin!!!

March 08, 2008

The entry below was not written by me (Kim). Anyone who knows me, knows that I would never write something like this.The person is only trying to relieve their quilt! I know who wrote it and it was a childish attempt to minimize the death of my daughter Saige.  Her death was an accident that was caused by her cousin and I am only stating the facts that were in the police report given to me by the state police department. The sooner "you" realize that she got away with murder (x 2 and you know the 2 deaths I am talking about) the sooner "you" can move on! I will never forgive her cousin for taking Saige away from me. And I dont care if she did receive life threatening injuries, it was not enough for what she did!!!She is still alive and able to breathe and live her life, while Saige can not.....

A very sick individual wrote this post below.  I hope they are very happy with themselves. 



Saige Elizabeth Bowman was our precious daughter who was taken away in a car accident. The driver of the car lost control of the car and another car hit on Saige's side and killed her instantly. Her cousin, the driver of the car in which Saige was riding received life threatening injuries and has been scarred for life by this tramatic experience. I have continued to make this difficult for her by continually pouring salt into the wound, although i know that Saige would not approve of this childish behavior. While i have claimed that the driver was going approximately 85 mph, this is not true. I have also claimed that the driver was under the influence of drugs which there is also no evidence to claim as truth. I continue to disregard the fact that there was another driver involved in this accident and that he was going approximately 55mph in a 35 mph zone, as he testified to in court. Hopefully one day i will be able to come to terms with what is real and not what i imagine to be the truth. Saige's death was the result of many dynamics, not just one persons actions and the sooner i realize that the sooner i will be able to heal myself and allow others to do so as well.

Dec 5, 2007
u know...
u never know what to say ....
u never know if you are doing the right things....
u never know if this is the life u want to live....
u never know who your real friends are...
u never know why things happen....
u never know if u should give up or not....
u never know what to do....
sometime u just want to sleep and never wake up....
to feel the darkness.....
to hear the peace...
to feel no pain...
never be lonley again....
all u want to do is touch the one person you
love with all your heart and soul.
and the sad thing is.... u will never get to do that...
to know u will be left here on the earth to endure the pain the rest of your life...
the life u wish would end everyday...
the life u wish could go back 22 months, 11 days
and say,.... I love youu.... please dont go... I need you here.... I cant live without you... you have so much to do here... please dont leave... you have to take care of me... I am nothing without you.... you were my life...you gave me strength.... you gave me courage.... you knew my secrets.....I knew yours....
life is not fair... why not give up? you can never do anything right.....so why stay here? in all this pain.. no one understands you.... they say they do... they try... but no one wants to imagine life without the one who has their heart....
u never know what life will give you....
u never know whats around the corner....
sometimes you dont want to know....and sometimes you want to know so you can change it...... so there will be no pain.....





July 12, 2007

"Child"

You don't know how I feel, please don't tell me that you do.
There's just one way to know, have you lost a child too?"
You'll see her in heaven", must I hear this every day?
How long do I wait, as the time slowly passes away?

Don't say it was "God's will", for that is not the God I know.
Would God on purpose break my heart, then watch as my tears flow?
"You have an angel now, in heaven, precious child above."
But, tell me, to whom here on earth shall I give this love?

"Aren't you better yet?" Is that what I heard you say?
No! A part of me has gone, and I will always feel this way.
Perhaps you think your silence will help to ease my pain?
But I want to talk about the daughter I'll never hold again.

Don't say these things to me, although I know you do mean well.
They do not take my pain away; I must go through this hell.
I will get better sure, yet slow, and it helps to have you near,
But "I'm sorry that you lost a child" is all I have to hear.

Author Unknown


Saige was a wonderful friend to everyone. Anyone who met her, loved her. She was like any typical teenager. She loved to talk on the phone and go out with her friends. She didn't like school and "played" sick when ever she could. The only reason she went to school was to spend time with her friends! Saige loved to spend time with her grandparents. She would go on trips with them to Florida and any where she wanted to go.